Wow. That's all I can say. Wow. lol This past week has been amazing. I've been busy every night since last Thursday. That night I got together with Michelle and we went and played pool. Then Friday we did the same thing. Saturday night we went to Summer Celebration, but it was closing when we got there, so we ended up at Rocket Pocket again to play pool. Sunday, you guessed it, we played pool again. lol. Monday night we went to Summer Celebration with her sister Jen, and her boyfreind. It was cool. We were all too broke to go on any rides. We did manage to scrape up some money and we went out to eat at a place called "Someplace Else". Good pizza there, let me tell you. lol Then we went back to Summer Celebration to watch the 4th of July fireworks. They were ok. Others said they sucked, but it was the first fireworks show I had ever seen, so I can't really judge. Tuesday we played pool, drove around for a while, shot off a firework in a feild somewhere between Rothbury and Ferry. Then we went and saw Autumn for a few minutes. First time I've seen her in a long time. Wensday, we played pool Whitehall. Then she took me out to where she used to live in Rothbury, and we ended up two-tracking through to Hart, where we ended up shooting off a bunch of fireworks, some of which ended up under her car before they went off. lol. Then last night was the funnest. I was going to take her out to dinner for her birthday (which is today, not yesterday. lol) But she said she was nt hungry, so I put some gas in my car, and we went two-tracking in Pentwater Pathways. It was all good, til I went from two-tracking to no-tracking. I got my chasis hung up on one rut, and my front bumper hung up on another, so my front wheels were not on the ground. I called a buddy I work with, and he came and pulled us out with his jeep. Michelle called here mom, and she came out with some Mountain Dew for us. Thanks mom! lol. We eventually found our way back to Rothbury, on the two-tracks we had been on the night before, only we took a different turn, and eventually, after a lot of panicing and freaking out, realized that ended up in FREMONT! lol.  We started getting worried when we didn't recognize any of the street names we were seeing. lol. Finally though, we came across a road that Michelle knew, and she directed us back home. It was a blast. I loved every minute of this past week. Tonight Michelle is in Mount Pleasent gambling with her mom for her B-day. Tomorrow we are hoping she will make it back in time to go to the White Snake concert at Summer Celebration.

Well, until then . . .Adios!

I don't even know where to start. It's been like forever since I've written in this thing. Well, I guess I'll just start off from where I left off on my last post.

Well, Jessica and I are no longer together. We saw each other 3 times in the 3 weeks we were together. That, and she found someone else she liked a little more. So we broke up. All on good terms though. We are still freinds and talk quite frequently. I also did not go to prom with her. I almost did, but her new boyfreind came up with the money last minute, so they went together. I spent that whole wondering what would have happened if I had gone with her. I still like her alot. Actually, I see her more now than I did when we were together. I ditch work quite often to go see her at school. Shh . . don't tell! lol

The problem I had with my car the last time I posted has been fixed. A grand total of $778 to fix that. Car ran great for a while, but now it burns so much oil, it's pathetic. I use more oil than I do gas. lol Then recently, my camshaft broke, so that was another $200 to get that fixed.

Lets see . . .what next. I still work at Keehne's in Stony Lake. Went through some rough times there. Almost got fired, but now the job is going pretty well. I actually don't mind it now.

I applied to MCC not to long ago. But I messed up on the application. I applied for day classes starting in the fall, when I meant to apply for night classes starting this spring or summer. So I need to get that straightened out as soon as possible. I still have not decided what I want to major in. See, I want to go to college at Kendall Art College when I have enough money, transfering there from MCC. But the there is only one night class offered this summer at MCC in the art feild. I could major computers, which I could easily do, but that means I could not transfer to Kendall. So I'm still not sure what I'm going to do. I'll figure it out though, I always do.

I've been hanging out with Michelle and Autumn a lot latley. Michelle more than Autumn, but close enough. We go and play pool alot. Michelle always kicks our asses, but I am getting pretty good. Pool is fun. I challenge any of you to a game! lol

Lets see, I think thats about it. Oh! Nope! One more thing. I need to buy a new car. I'm using so much oil that its costing me too much. That and I loose so much oil so quick, it will eventually cause some other damage to my car. I found the car I want. A 1997 Dodge Neon. Manual. Perfect condition. Only $2144. The only problem is that I don't have that money. Not even close. If anyone out there knows where I can come up with that amount of money, or any amount of money, please let me know. In the meantime, I am selling ALL of my CD's. Some of them are on Ebay right now, others will be put on later. I will post a list later of all the CD's I have. The original copies will go for $10 a peice. If I sell one that you one, you can get a burnt copy for like $2. Any info you can give me on how to get some quick cash, I would really really appreiceate it. Thanks.

And, on a final note, here is a quote for you all.

<em>"Love and hate are emotions both centered in the heart. You cannot love with having hated, and you cannot hate without having loved"</em>

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know where to start. Well, yeah, I do.

I have a girlfreind. Jessica Studor. She is amazing. Brittany, THANK YOU for setting us up. I owe you big.

I'll tell that whole story later.

Right now, I have the bad shitty news.

My car needs repaired. It's going to cost 1 grand. I don't have it, that also means I don't have enough to buy a different car. With no car, I can not get to my job. that means I will get fired, that means I will no money for anything, phone, net, and most importantly . .. .PROM. I finally have a great girl, who actualy likes me, and now I can't afford to take her to prom.

We've been going out for less than a day, and I've let her down already.

I am stressing out so bad right now its not even funny. I have tears in my eyes right now. I have no idea how to get out of this mess. And I really have no idea how to tell her. It's gonna break her heart. I know she was really looking forward to going to prom.

If anyone, has any adive, or anything they think might help, please tell me. Please. I will owe you big!

It's hard, isn't it? Finding that one person that is the reason for you getting up in the moring, loosing her, and then trying to find another one, a "replacement" There is no way . . .

I may have never had a girlfriend, but there is a girl that I care for as much, if not more, than you care for your significant others. And there is no way I can find someone else like that. There is nothing that will fill the void caused by her absence. Nothing, not even getting drunk, wasted, or anything like that. Nothing. It makes you feel hollow inside, takes away your reason for being. You start to think . . "What's the point of all this anymore?" And then it gets to the point where you think you can't take it anymore, and you want out. But then you realize, that you still have the memories. and thats better than nothing. So you continute to trudge on through life, wearing your daily facade, and hoping against hope that things will get better, but knowing that no matter what, as long as you hold those memories close, you will still have a part of her with you, and that you will be OK.